First off, I’m ok and at home now. I’ve been having strange symptoms for the last couple months (dizziness, nausea, painful cramping) and finally figured out I was pregnant, which was quite a shock to us obviously but absolutely thrilling news. We could barely believe it when we found out.  Yesterday during an ultrasound at my OB the symptoms got much, much worse and I ended up collapsing. They called an ambulance to take me over to Hoag ER where I had all the doctors, nurses and specialists baffled for a few hours. Ultrasounds were showing a healthy egg sack in my endometrium (where it should be), blood flow to my tubes and ovaries were good, etc. But I was very pale and couldn’t even have my head elevated in bed without passing out. The pain was starting to become unbearable and on the 3rd ultrasound they saw that there actually was an ectopic pregnancy and it ruptured my right Fallopian tube. I lost 4 liters of blood in 35 minutes, and was taken in to surgery to have my right tube and the ectopic removed. They were able to do the surgery laparoscopically and it went ‘well’ but due to the amount of blood I lost they kept me overnight for monitoring. I’m home now and doing ok. Jordan is home, thank goodness, and my mom came in to help out. I’m super grateful for both those things. I’m very sad about the baby, who was about 8-10 weeks along. But I guess this too shall pass. Right?  I’m actually still in shock about the whole thing and very tired so I haven’t made heads or tails of anything yet. Right now the hardest part for me is that I can’t pick up River for 6 weeks, which is all I want to do. Other than sleep.

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  1. Hopefully River will be down for some Momma Cuddles while you recover. If you get the lap gas pains, get up and slowly walk around. Getting on my feet every so often made it better for me. Sending so much love to all of you. I’m so sorry you had to experience this ❤

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  2. Anonymous says:

    so sorry to hear this babe but glad that you were able to get pregnant. SILVER LINING!! woohoo! get well soon, love ya.


  3. oc15 says:

    oh my god. you are very very lucky and i am SO happy to hear you are okay and they were able to mend you via surgery. so very scary. i know firsthand the sadness and confusion you are feeling surround this surprise pregnancy and loss but honestly just focus on the fact that you are still here and doing okay. ectopic rupture is a very dangerous and sometimes deadly thing. take your time to heal from this trauma.


  4. dani says:

    I’m so glad you are doing okay . I really enjoy seeing your posts and watching your family have fun and love. Sometimes being positive is so hard, but those days we have to look twice as hard and find the smallest things gs to be thankful for. Perspective is everything. Here is to a (quick, painless, what word can I use here that would be appropriate?) Recovery, and we are all thinking of you and sending nothing but the BEST vibes! 💗

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  5. Allison Welch says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, but thankful you’re ok! While you’ll obviously never forget about losing a baby, I can unfortunately say from experience it does get easier. And you’re not alone mama. Sending healing vibes your way. Xx

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  6. Oh I just saw this… I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that. I hope you’re healing and doing okay now xoxo

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  7. I’m way behind on reading but I’m hoping by now you’re feeling well!


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